I want a new car!

I'm going to buy a new car. Yay for me. It's just that time. I think I can afford something now and my cougar just won't do any longer. I saw an add on tv for Dutch Miller Kia that I can get a new 2009 car for $94 a month. Totally my price. Possibly too good to be true but I'ma check anyway. My ideal car would be a honda but I can't afford a new one of those and what's the point in getting a used one when I can get a brand new car. It would be totally nice. Plus those Kias are supposed to get good gas mileage and they accept the cash for clunkers thing. I'm pretty sure my cougar will qualify since it's a peice of poopy with nuts mixed in. LOL. I need to put on my game face though cause I'ma see what kinda deal I can get and I'll need to be a hard ass and ask a lot of questions so they know I'm serious and know my stuff. After my car, I should be an expert on what I want and what to ask about. Please God help me in this matter to get a new car. It is much needed, both for reliability and personal satisfaction.

Blog Blog BLog. I want to throw a chair out the window. LOL


Sick of sitting at work all day hoping that my bosses will do what needs to be done on my end of the business but yet again as always, they are off worrying about other things and leave me here to hear all the complaints about things in the apartments that aren't being taken care of. People don't pay their rent, things aren't getting fixed, and I'm tired of all the mess.


I know I know, if you don't like it change it. Well that's exactly what I intend to do soon.


I'ma go back to school so I don't have to deal with this anymore.


In previous blogs and this, I do love the people I work withbut it just keeps getting harder to put up with all the things I shouldn't have to if others would do what they re supposed to do.


I could go on and on.





On a sad note, one of our family pets, Molly (weiner dog) passed away. Mom loved those dogs. They were around for a long time. RIP Miss Molly!!!!!





May plan on seeing a movie this weekend with the ex. Don't know what's going on there still but we're getting along great. See each other almost every day and talk every day. Drives me crazy that I don't have a difinitive title with him but I'm taking things slow. Don't wanna mess em up. But I still wanna kick his ass. LOL

He still loves me! Hehe

Just really tired.

Boy am I just so tired all the time. All I seem to do is work and don't have much to show for it. I have been working for more than 10 years now and I'm only 26. When I put it that way, it seems like an extremely long time for someone my age to be working but many people have lived like this. My first job was at Pizza Hut. I was a server. Not good money but for a 16 year old I was happy with it. Moved on from there to work as a server/cook/hostess/cashier/cleaning girl/party planner/everything for the local park system. I worked there until my departure to college. Glad to say the first couple of yars in college I didn't work. Didn't do much of anything really. I had no goals though it seemed I did. I guess I was content at the time. Then I started working for the Cracker Barrel as a cashier then as a hostess too. They have always been really good to me there but it can be really stressful. See, I'm a perfectionist at work. Things always hav to be in the same place or way I normally keep them. It became kind of a joke between me and fellow employees. I became the obsessive-compulsive person. They all knew to clean up the cash stand before I came in for my shift. Otherwise, I'd spend the first hour I was there neatly putting things in order. When I hosted, I would clean the tables off and sweep the dining room. Maybe you could say I just take pride in what I'm doing and don't think it should be half assed. I like going to a restaurant that's clean and where people are nice. That's the Cracker Barrel way (well supposed to be). So I always wanted things to be presentable. I could never be a manager there although they asked me like a hundred times to train for it. I would be so critical. Now I work for a construction and rental company as a secretery and leasing consultant. Oh boy. I'm always stressed about things. And it's not even really MY stress. When tenants don't pay rent, I get stressed cause I got my boss telling me to call and write letters and post door hangers. The rent's not coming to me so I shouldn't be as stressed if someone doesn't pay right away. And I've never in my life seen such a nosy, nasty, tattletaleing bunch of people, ever. People tell on others for everything. People are soooo nasty with their apartments. The maintanance work seems like it never gets done. Mostly because the maintanance man hardly likes to show up for work and I think he sits around sometimes when we think he's working on something. And the guys lie on their time sheets. And tenants will call and say they talked to my boss about something and I know nothing about it and say he said something was OK and expect me not to ask him. Of course I'm gonna find out before I tell them OK myself because I've had to deal with a bunch of liers. They all lie. Makes me wanna just throw shit at them like a monkey and say you stupid person. Ah I'm acting like a child hehe. But on the good side of this job is comfort. The people I work for and with feel like family. Well I am here 8 to 5 every Monday through Friday, but they make me comfortable. I get any of the latest technology if I want. All I have to do is ask. The boss brings me a Red Bull almost everyday. Much of the time I'm doing my own research. My boss just hands me money sometimes. Usually it's a 20 but he gave me a 50 just yesterday. They bought me stuff before my cruise and gave me money to gamble on and for whatever I wanted. They are good people with money. I like them.
But boy am I tired. I wake up at 6:20 am Monday through Friday to work 8 to 5. On Monday's I have to work (well only one more Monday since I've put my notice in at the Barrel. 30$ a week just wasn't worth all the hassle) at the Barrel. So I would work 8-5 then leave, drive home, change clothes, and then head to Cracker Barrel 6 to 10:30. I was worn out for days just to make up for my Mondays. I was also having to deal with taking care of one of our tenants pets on a daily basis. She moved thank goodness.
I'm just looking foward to going back to school and doing something I would really love. Teaching history. I have been out of school for 2 years now. It will be hard to motivate myself to do the work again but I feel now I will better apply myself. School work has always interested me but never kept my attention long because much of it was boring. I want to bring some excitement into learning history. Kids need to find what interests them and have a teacher willing to take their topics and teach it with enthusiasm.
I just think also that 7 to 3 is a much better work schedule than 8 to 5. Plus I could get summers off. Vacays!!!!
I'm just ready to take a new step in my life. I have some really good things in me. I just lack the motivation to bring them out.

Thoughts on a relationship.

Well I've learned many things in life in my 26 years and I keep learning everyday. I've learned that a relationship takes a lot of hard work. Many people say that of course, but I've lived it. It takes sacrifice. It takes communication. It takes most of all love and will (the will to want things to work). People say when you know, you just know. Well, I just know it and I feel it. So giving up is not in my vocabulary on this particular subject with a particular someone. I've learned there's no pushing someone to make up their mind quickly because they need time to weigh what's right in their life too. I can't always think about myself. I've been put in that situation before. What really matters is that I'm willing to risk a little heartache if the outcome eventually may end in happiness. I have hope. I put my trust in God in these matters because that's who takes care of me and will give me the right results. Not just what I want but what is right for me. God said be patient and trust in him. I know there's a good man in him. He just has to see it himself. So I'm waiting, patiently!